"The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it."
Oscar Wilde
Welcome to Imagination Temptation, a place where rants of a girl and the overwhelming feelings of her lays here.
All of the words implied here are genuinely from inside her mind or heart, though there are no guarantee that everything in here were just her imagination or fantasy.
Shall you see further inside this place, just click the girls on the left.
Profile
Who am I?
Certainly no one.
Well, I am just a being who likes to imagine a lot. It even tempts me.
An author of its life. A human who likes to and being loved.
Who doesn't, after all? Blasphemy, I say, if you don't need to be love and loved.
I like simplicity yet complexity. I like modest things yet also I like challenges.
I hate apathetic people. I hate selfish people. I hate ignorant people.
I love stories from the girl in the attic. I love songs that sings out feelings.
I don't like cliche love songs. Suffice to say, I don't like most of the songs in the world?
Hey, do you want to know more? Are you listening to me?
I'm.... here again.... it's been so, so, long... isn't it? I thought that kind of life and thought had ended, but I still have to come back to here... the only place that knows my sorrow and suffering....
I thought I had achieved happiness.... I thought I was able to walk and go forward, without anything to hold me back. Without anything to worry about...
But in the end, dark thoughts are returning.... I don't know what to do, or where to go... I don't know who to trust or to rely on. I don't know how I ended this way, the me existing now....
I have become such an anxious person, who's not able to finish a thing. Who's unable to concentrate and do her best... who's just... a pathetic person...
I'm... lost... I... don't know...
No... I do know.... why... everything... like's this...
No one has ever hold me back. Since the day I lost my mother, I've been content on my own... not trying to strife for the best.... just being okay... as long as I'm 'happy'... I don't need anything else........
That has taken a toll on me... that I only work on what's becoming my joy... and ignoring what I have to do.... I don't know how to struggle to study, how to work hard... I don't know... all I know is to pleasure myself....
I'm.... scared........
I think I have ADHD. I think I need help. I need something to guide me by, but... how can I start? Who should I tell my problems? No... I shouldn't, should I? This is my problem. One I should try to solve on my own. I need to change myself, but... I don't know... for what... I'm such.... a.... dumb person.....
I'm.... lost....
I just want to die, again. I have no one to love, and everyone around me.... they're just... are they so precious to me? Or are they just... there? I love my siblings, but... we have this unbreakable wall between us...
My bleeding hasn't stopping. I never finished school works. I don't have money and so do my dad.
I need... help... but.... who... where... how... can I find it....
