"The only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it."
Oscar Wilde
Welcome to Imagination Temptation, a place where rants of a girl and the overwhelming feelings of her lays here.
All of the words implied here are genuinely from inside her mind or heart, though there are no guarantee that everything in here were just her imagination or fantasy.
Shall you see further inside this place, just click the girls on the left.
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Who am I?
Certainly no one.
Well, I am just a being who likes to imagine a lot. It even tempts me.
An author of its life. A human who likes to and being loved.
Who doesn't, after all? Blasphemy, I say, if you don't need to be love and loved.
I like simplicity yet complexity. I like modest things yet also I like challenges.
I hate apathetic people. I hate selfish people. I hate ignorant people.
I love stories from the girl in the attic. I love songs that sings out feelings.
I don't like cliche love songs. Suffice to say, I don't like most of the songs in the world?
Hey, do you want to know more? Are you listening to me?
Doctor said I have a cyst inside my right.. womb or something like that. It's 5 cm in size, and she said I have to be operated. Um, and I am confused. I don't know if this cyst is actually acute or not. It has been a long time since I went to a doctor, and I'm even having a trouble telling my condition to the doctor. When I know I have a cyst inside my body, I'm just... confused.
Was it horrible? Was it acute? Will it affect my birth fertility? What will happen if they don't get lifted up soon? Why don't I feel pain at all?
As far as I remember, I'm just having my menstruation cycle is out of it's way. It's been weeks and it hasn't even stopped. I wonder what's wrong with me, but I didn't expect it turns out like this.
I'm a little afraid, but hey...
Sigh, I just don't know what to do.
And for the usual ramblings. These week I've found myself kinda troubled with some stuff.
I've been sleeping quite late this week, and some people have made me mad.
I somewhat dislike my class. The people in there just make me want to say FFFFFFFF all the time. Like last Wednesday, my homeroom teacher has decided to re-arrange the seat in the class, and why the hell they just CAN'T GO WITH IT? Why do they have to whine all the time and refusing this and blah and that. It's like moving your chairs and move your butt won't kill you at all. I wonder why do they are spoiled very much? Why do they just think for their own pleasure? Why don't they once think about THEIR OWN GOOD and OTHER PEOPLE'S FEELING? STUPID PEOPLE ARE STUPID.
I actually am feeling sorry so much for my homeroom teacher. My friend told me that while she was teaching in her class last year, not even once that my teacher has ever been very mad like this days. On Thursday when she entered the class, she doesn't seem amused with the position of the chairs, and she just stay silent then leave the class, mad. My 'friends' who whine and just refused to follow her order was like 'wut? why is she so annoying?' 'just move your own butt and chair'. HEY, YOU GUYS ARE THE ONE WHO IS ANNOYING AND JUST TOO LAZY TO MOVE YOUR OWN ASS AND CHAIRS. SHE'S DOING THAT FOR THE SAKE OF YOUR GOODNESS, NOT FOR TORTURING YOU. SHE EVEN SAID THAT SHE WILL STILL LET YOU SIT WITH YOUR FRIENDS. HOW ISN'T THAT GOOD ENOUGH?
Sigh, despite of this, I can't really say what I feel to them.
I recently discovered this thing. No matter if I'm serious or I'm just joking, people tend to not listen to me. No matter how important of how unimportant the thing I'm talking about, they won't listen to me. I wonder why is this. Was this because I don't talk as much as them? Or was this because I'm not worthy as their friend to be listened to?
I have a friend. My friend, is somewhat very easy to talk out her mind, even when she's talking, no matter even how unimportant what she's talking about, people always seems listening to her, and react to her. Me, while I was telling my problems or stories, people in the end just stay silent and say nothing. They won't comment at all. Okay, I know maybe because I only 'listen' too much and barely made a comment too. It was just a karma playing back to me, but... how can it be?
I just... don't understand. There's so many part of me that I didn't understand. Even after I went this far...
